PUKE!!

Something is wrong with me..

I should stop giving myself problems.

I feel nauseous just at the thought of it.

My stomach feels all swirly.

My heart pounds hard and I can feel my BP rising sometimes.

I’m still in ctrl. NO!.. i can’t let my hypertension and palpitaion to set in again

Some things are just harder to get by.

Some things are just tougher to get over.

Some things will always linger and sometimes haunt you in your dreams.

Some things are just much more painful to handle.

Some things just needs me to pull the extra strength to hold myself together.

“Ya Allah, help me through this. I know and I won’t pray for someone’s unhappiness. But to err is human. I’m not going to say those prayers. But I do pray that mistakes are learnt and everyone should face up to their mistakes and weaknesses, embracing them with optimism to mould into a better person. I don’t need forgiveness, I don’t know what i need. I have peace and I seek solace in You. It’s a tough and maybe one of the hardest lessons to be learnt, I just pray that they realise the hurt and grief they’ve caused. I still cry sometimes. I still close my eyes hoping all these are just nightmares or pictures from a soap opera, torturing a woman’s soul. I still sometimes wished the love was real. Ya Allah, give me what You know is best for me and my family. Ya Allah, guide me through this pain that i still feel sometimes. Ya Allah, let me enjoy the wonders of Your creation.

No love is more worthy than Your love… Help me learn to love You more than anything else. Amin.”

~ by briyani99 on April 17, 2008.